With tear filled eyes,
I sit in a dark corner
Shattered into pieces
Alone is a small word for what I am
What I’m going through is more than I can stand
I wonder if I die will anyone care
At my funeral will anyone be there
Will anyone cry?
To see me soul-less
Leaving behind all my sorrow,
Pain and cries
In the mirror my reflection I stare
All my thoughts are more than enough to bear
Filled with wrath
Filled with greed
Filled with pain
Filled with loneliness
Filled with emptiness
Filled with tears
Shall I let sins consume me?
From the mirror I look at my lonely shadow on the wall
Then I look at my wrist
I look at the scars
I clench my fist
With envy I look at the ones who have a true and a very special friend
Their heart will always find a way to mend
Their tears will always be wiped off
Their cries will always be turned into smiles
Their screams will always be heard
Their wounds will always heal
They’ll always smile for real
Their loneliness will always be replaced by togetherness
They’ll always find someone to be hugged by
Is there something wrong with me?
Is there something I lack?
Is there something I do to hurt people?
Is there something I can’t see?
My heart shatters with every single tear
If I scream or mourn with pain
Will anyone hear?
I drop on my knees
Cry even harder
For a moment I think
Why should I cry?
Why should I care?
If all these thoughts are more than enough to bear
Then why should I think
Why not just be numb
I grab a blade,
Slice my thumb
The blood spill down
Flow on the floor
I watch my blood
Rip from my thumb
Then I think of cutting myself more
I place the blade on my wrist
From my eye a tear leaks
About to slice my wrist
Why should I die?
I place my hand on my heart
“If it stopped, would you miss me?”
By Sahrish Iftikhar. 11th August ’13
Note: Not my best or not even good enough to read but this is what happens when you miss someone you are not supposed to miss and it gets even worse when NOTHING seem distracting. How are you suppose to NOT miss a person your mind can’t stop thinking about, your heart can’t stop missing?