An Apology Letter To Baba Jani

Dear Baba Jani, I hope and pray you are well up there. Tonight is the night you almost left us. You spent the entire night at the hospital where you were almost gone. M, stood by you in all those moments the monitor showed flat lines. You struggled for breath. You wanted to be home …

An Open Letter From A Grieving Daughter About How It Is Like To Lose A Father & About Why I Don’t Flaunt My Religious Beliefs

Dear all those who know that I never got to grieve my father's death properly & those who are making it excruciatingly difficult for me to find peace, I did not plan to ever post this but you know the thing about losing a loved one that too a parent is that at some point …

Do Yourself A Favor; Let Yourself ‘FEEL’!

I am not an expert on anything but I have learned A LOT of things, well actually everything the hard way. I am not even remotely kidding when I say that I have learned everything the hard way. It's a truth that I have come to terms with as at the end of the day, …

A Year Of Graduation, No Baba Jani To Celebrate

My father was the kind of person who celebrated every little or big occasion or happiness or anything that could bring few moments of joy or happiness. He made everyone's day with very little gestures. He loved surprising people and spreading love and happiness. All of it was transferred to us genetically. Last night, I …

“Baba, you left us too early”

Its been 85 days Baba Jani left us. I have bottled up my emotions for the most part. Or maybe I caved in some kind of a shell I always create to keep myself numb. Am I making sense here? I guess I am not. Well, Lately I have been have these moments where I …

Of the last song, Baba Jani, memories, pain and countless tears – Kadi Aawo Ni

بیتے زمانے beetay zamaanay Ages have passed کسی بہانے kisi bahaanay Yet the thought of my sweetheart اسے یاد کروں ussay yaad karun Is still with me ہیں جو یادیں بھکری مورے انگنا hain jo yaaden bhikri moray angina Every corner of my home is filled with your memories کبھی تو بھی یاد کرے kabhi …

Everyone is fighting their own battles, learn to be kind & respect maybe?

Okay I have given good amount of my time to think about putting this up or not since one of my previous post ( The BIGGEST lesson my father's death taught me) has gotten me much negative responses from some very close people which is why I was holding back from posting anything that may include what …

Of choices, post mugging, random musings & thoughts

Today marks 3 weeks of me being deprived of my phone, my cards and hard-earned money. When people get mugged, I have seen them cursing, wishing bad for the person or even harming or wanting to kill them. I have also seen people having this urge to steal from others as a revenge. The list …

Of hospitals, corridors, waiting areas, Baba jani, & all the memories, scary flashbacks attached…

For the past decade and a half I have spent most of my days and nights in and out of various hospitals. I have spent hours, at times days and nights in waiting areas/rooms of hospitals, waiting and praying of course for either my mother or father. I have even heard some very moving and …

The BIGGEST lesson my father’s death taught me

Today marks 31 days my father passed away. For the past 31 days my biggest struggles have been keeping my family and myself together, not letting the world break me and the most important one: not to turn into a cold person because that would hurt my father's soul the most. For the past 31 …